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In This Moment

by Sunflower Summit

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1.
Become Undone 03:45
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I've been away for a little while Closed my eyes against the sun and let the heat burn me a new style Left it all to become undone I let the sand blend into my toes And let the ocean cut my lips I let this new world pick my clothes And let myself be carried on ships My skin is peeling It hurts to touch This is the end This is the start Isn’t it great To know in our heart The end and the start Both are the same I’ve been away for a little while Wondered how long I could out run The feeling so sad behind this smile Left it all to become undone I let the sand blend into my toes Never had I left the pavement before Stinging with summer heat - that’s how it goes Both are the same, everyone knows My skin is peeling It hurts to touch This is the end This is the start Isn’t it great To know in our heart The end and the start Both are the same Endings can hurt Beginnings can too Feeling unearthed That’s what change will do The end and the start Both are the same This is the end This is the start Isn’t it great To know in our heart The end and the start Both are the same Endings can hurt Beginnings can too Feeling unearthed That’s what change will do The end is the start Both are the same Both are the same Both are the same
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Do Nothing 03:01
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I just wanna do nothing do nothing do nothing I just wanna I just wanna do nothing do nothing do nothing I just wanna I’m not getting out of bed today I’m not even gonna eat I’m not getting out of bed today It’s cold outside, the skies are gray And I’m forgetting why I even try I’ve been swimming In cold pool The water doesn’t get warmer I’ve been swimming In a cold pool And I don’t want to swim anymore I just wanna do nothing do nothing do nothing I just wanna I just wanna do nothing do nothing do nothing I just wanna And I’m disappointing But mostly to myself To what do I owe all this loathing Wishing, dreaming, thinking All this wasted time Sometimes I forget that I’m breathing I’ve been swimming In cold pool The water doesn’t get warmer I’ve been swimming In a cold pool And I don’t want to swim anymore I just wanna do nothing do nothing do nothing I just wanna I just wanna do nothing do nothing do nothing I just wanna Ahh, ahh Ahh, ahh I just wanna do nothing do nothing do nothing I just wanna I just wanna do nothing do nothing do nothing I just wanna I just wanna do nothing do nothing do nothing I just wanna I just wanna do nothing do nothing do nothing I just wanna Aahh
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Not In The Mood 03:09
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I’m not in the mood for singing Not in the mood for making Something incredible Now why does everything have to be So wonderful, anyway I want to be seen I want to be heard But i’m tired Of hearing my own voice And I’m not sure What the point is anymore Oohh Oooh My heart is breaking in my own hands And I’ve got no bandaids I don’t know how to fix it So I’m just letting it bleed This person singing right now Well I know it isn’t me Or is it the true me I forget how to be happy And slip inside this pit Oohh Ooohh Lucky for me, this isn’t an eternity Lucky for me, I know one day I’ll be happy Oooh Oohh I’m not in the mood for explaining why I get this way I have a hard time understanding But somehow I know Everything’s gonna be okay
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Anxiety 03:10
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Everything Is just a little too loud My eyes are heavy, but rest they have not found Anxiety Oh you riddle me Why do I let you Keep me up at night Let you take over my life Ooh Ooh Ooh Focusing On such trivial things I know it doesn’t really matter But I can’t help myself ‘cause everything matters I can’t function Give me back my sleep I’m a ghost in my own body An emptiness surrounding Everything Ooh Ooh Ooh What will it take To free myself Do I need to break So I can tell I’m too hard on myself I already know I have the key to my own cell That’s how the cycles goes
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How Bright 03:43
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All the lullabies in the world Couldn’t sooth the chaos in my soul Sweet dreams and counting sheep Gentle whispers in my sleep Couldn’t stop my mind from wrecking me Ooh I am not one to regret But all the darkness in my head Mixes with the light Put a smile on my face Giving all my pain away Doesn’t change how bright Taste of coffee on my lips Warms my body but plays tricks Trying to move on with the day Battling the tired way Dreamers run a wasted race Ooh I am not one to regret But all the darkness in my head Mixes with the light Put a smile on my face Giving all my pain away Doesn’t change how bright
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Storms 04:58
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Time to let it go Time to let yourself know The voices in your mind Were never so nice Be gentle Be kind This happens every time Be gentle Be kind Save some peace of mind The storm Is already here It’s too late to run For cover This is not giving up This feels heavy But it’s just enough Be gentle Be kind This happens every time Be gentle Be kind Save some peace of mind The storm Is already here It’s too late to run For cover So just let the weather Drown you out Tomorrow you can figure it out Just let the weather drown you out Tomorrow Storms come and go Don’t let them get a hold Of your heart Storms come and go Don’t let them get a hold Of your heart The storm Is already here It’s too late to run It’s too late to run So just let the weather Drown you out Tomorrow you can figure it out Just let the weather drown you out Tomorrow
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It's A Rainy Day 04:18
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The world is grieving The sky is weeping How does anyone see clearly Through the rain How does anyone feel kindness Through the pain It’s all blurry And my ankle won’t carry me I’m exhausted But my mind won’t let me sleep I am told to look for something warm I’m trying to find my way Back home Every moment counts Every single breath This world can drown you out But you got to believe You can find your way out It’s all blurry And my ankle won’t carry me I’m exhausted But my mind won’t let me sleep I am told to look for something warm I’m trying to find my way Back home Release me from these chains I’m ready for all that remains Let me dry the tears From your face We’ll grieve together What can’t be replaced
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Temporary 03:56
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Guess you really faded away This time Slowly and softly accumulating Like dust in the sun Barely there Barely harmless Blending in Blending out into ordinary time Ordinary life Ooh, temporary Ooh, temporary Guess I’ve been practicing the act Of letting go Longer than I’ve ever known I’m becoming quite a pro At detachment Barely there Barely anywhere Blending into nothing Ooh, temporary Ooh, temporary Remembering Every moment Is just luck Remembering Even joy and happiness Must pass Remembering Every moment Every feeling Every heartache Is just Ooh, temporary Ooh, temporary Ooh, temporary Ooh, temporary
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Pure Beauty 03:20
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What are you flustered about Always running around Just trying to be found Girl, you’re not lost Talking yourself down Believing the worst All the words you spoke first Oh girl, don’t be a liar Oh when will you learn to see You are pure beauty Time to let go Of the voices in your mind Telling you you’re not enough You know they’re only lies Time to be brave You can face what lies ahead You better believe You are all that you need You are beautiful So beautiful Building up/ everyone you meet Don’t you know Everyone can see All the loving you pour into this world Is all the loving you need for yourself girl Pick yourself up, you know you deserve more Time to step up, believe and you’ll behold All you need is already within Girl, you gotta let yourself dream Oh when will you learn to see You are pure beauty Time to let go Of the voices in your mind Telling you you’re not enough You know they’re only lies Time to be brave You can face what lies ahead You better believe You are all that you need You are beautiful So beautiful
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Tired Soul 04:21
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I’m so tired I cannot rest The thought of closing my eyes Just fills me with dread Time shows no mercy It’s unkind So uncanny Tell me why Do I always end up feeling so let down Over and over again I am shown How unreliable life can be But I just want something steady Over and over again I am shown How heartbreaking life really is But I just want a good memory I am a skeptic Always have been And perhaps that’s my trouble I doubt every good thing Instead of accepting Perhaps there’s nothing to it They say visualizing the end Is a good thing So I see a moment of hope Followed by emptiness Over and over again I am shown How joyful a life can be But I just can’t seem to keep it Over and over again I am shown How simple it all really is But I just seem to complicate it I complicate it What is wrong with me I am feeling so broken Will I ever feel whole again Maybe nothing’s wrong Maybe I am right where I belong I know in the end It all fades away It all fades away
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Ironic 03:44
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24 years old Sitting all alone On a friday night And it’s not the first time Nobody to call Nobody to miss you Nobody to tell you Not to drown yourself in work It’s easier to be okay Keeping everyone away It’s easier to be okay When you did this to yourself, Oh Ironic Aren’t you gonna tell me how Everybody loves me Ironic If everybody loves me Why is no one with me I can’t trust myself To get close with anybody else Hide the sadness Hide the pain No one can explain the way You feel happy and lost Wait for tomorrow Drown the sorrow With some champaign Celebrate with grace It’s easier to be okay Keeping everyone away It’s easier to be okay When you did this to yourself, Oh Ironic Aren’t you gonna tell me how Everybody loves me Ironic If everybody loves me Why is no one with me I can’t trust myself To get close with anybody else I can’t let you in As much as you try No rocks will break into mine I can’t let you in As much as I wish You don’t know how much I miss Being next to you But my messages can’t get through Ironic Aren’t you gonna tell me how Everybody loves me Ironic If everybody loves me Why is no one with me I can’t trust myself To get close with anybody else
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How Flowers Grow 03:42
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Keeping my life together on post it notes Trying to find the answers in “i don’t knows” Answers to questions I haven’t figured out It feels useless How do the flowers grow When they can’t see they don’t know The world above all the dirt Piecing together courage Like returning leaves back on their branches Muttering words of strength To bury the words of disbelief I’m trying to see beyond this Trying to picture the blue sky But I need a lot more sunshine How do the flowers grow When they can’t see they don’t know The world above all the dirt How do the flowers grow How can they find so much hope For something that they’ve never seen Ooh oohh.. I think I know How the flowers grow I think I know How flowers grow
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Healing 04:10
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I know you don’t really understand This road I’ve chosen as my path You think I’m running, running, running away Just trying trying to throw off the pain But I’m healing / slowly If I could skip all of the hard parts Pretend they never hurt me I’d be the same as always How you knew me How you want me I need space To get to know who I am Beyond this world made at your hand You can’t control, control, control me anymore I’ve let go, let go, let go of the your hold Now I’m healing / slowly There are moments I’ll never forget Feelings I can’t comprehend Are you an enemy or are you a friend Oh I can’t pretend I’m okay When I’m caught inside my own maze I need to find my own key But you can’t come along with me I need to find my way home But this time I’ll do it on my own
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I Can't See You 03:22
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I couldn’t see you today I couldn’t see you today I haven’t seen you in many months But it hurt more today And it’s not fair We’re both still alive It’s not fair All I can do is cry Cuz I couldn’t see You I couldn’t see You I’m just trying To sew back together The shreds I can muster Trouble is I never learned to sew Maybe i’m doing it all wrong But it was already broken before Now there’s Nowhere left to go I know someday This will be easier I know someday This won’t hurt anymore Until someday I need to close the door Until someday I can’t see you I can’t see you
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To Be Brave 02:43
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It’s been a hard couple of days If I let myself really see It’s always been this way Rose colored glasses Remove the frame I’m left with the pieces So little remains Everything changes So rapidly I’m doing everything To believe I want to try To be brave I want to let go and see If I could be free So I’ll try To be brave Nobody else can do it for me Just take it easy And don’t be mean There are so many avenues So many places to be I grew up thinking I could only be As small as you made me Well I’m no longer listening Everything changes so rapidly I’m doing everything to believe I want to try To be brave I want to let go and see If I could be free So I’ll try To be brave Nobody else can do it for me Now I’m the one Who gets to decide I’m not afraid of living My own life I won’t let you define Who I am Anymore - anymore I want to try To be brave I want to let go and see If I could be free So I’ll try To be brave Nobody else can do it for me Nobody else can love me like me
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To Love Myself 03:39
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I woke up on the wrong side Of the bed A single thought spiraling Through my head I thought I knew how to be My own friend But just look at where that’s lead There I go Wasting away another day There I go Feeling ashamed Of needing a break How many times Do I need to learn How many times Do I need to learn To love myself Guilt so many layers deep I can’t decide How much of the guilt is Actually mine If I’m honest I know I got To leave it behind I’m always afraid I’m running Out of time There I go Wasting away another Whole day There I go Feeling ashamed Of needing a break Oh How many times Do I need to learn How many times Do I need to learn To love myself oh Am I being selfish Or is this okay I’m a hamster on a wheel Just rolling away Even if I could forgive you That doesn’t ever change Everything we’ve been through Still remains How many times Do I need to learn How many times Do I need to learn How many times Do I need to learn To love myself
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Bonus - In This Moment 02:52
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In this moment I’m feeling alone And the hood around my head Is just safe enough In this moment I know all i know Is only a little bit Of stardust in this world And once this becomes a memory I wonder what I’ve learned Maybe nothing, maybe everything Maybe all there is to know Is that we are made of moments Little speccles of light and dust I can see you glimmer lightly And it’s all i need to trust That In this moment I’m present here with you This is how I remind myself To change my point of view In this moment There’s nothing we can’t do Cuz this moment is all we have So our dreams they must come true And once this becomes a memory I wonder what we’ve learned Maybe nothing, maybe everything Maybe all there is to know Is that we are made of moments Little speccles of light and dust I can see you glimmer lightly And it’s all i need to trust That in this moment We are stardust, we are light Just a fleeting human soul Living in this giant world In This moment We’ve got you and me We’re not so different Now I can see We were meant to be be
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Bonus - Take My Love 03:16
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What do you do When everything around you Swallows you whole What do you then What do you say When all the words have Emptied from your brain What do you say then Because the knot is growing Tighter and the fog is growing Stronger and the sirens are All ringing and it’s harder to Keep singing And then what is left When the song has ended And It’s just silent What do you do When all the tears have dried up And you’re left with an empty well What do you do then And what do you say When all you feel is the pain And there’s nothing else What do you say then Because the knot is growing Tighter and the fog is growing Stronger and the sirens are All ringing and it’s harder to Keep singing And then what is left When the song has ended And It’s just silent Don’t let it be silent Don’t let it be silent Don’t let it be silent Don’t let it be silent Because the knot is growing Tighter and the fog is growing Stronger and the sirens are All ringing and it’s harder to Keep singing But i promise to keep going And I promise to keep showing up Everyday to give my love Please take it all Everyday I’ll give my love Take it all Everyday I’ll give my love Take my love Please take my love
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Bonus - Open Cracks 04:03
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Walking along sunday morning Coffee burning on my tongue Another day Will i waste it away Hanging around on a fragment Do I even exist anymore What a loss, what a shame Could I give it away (what a loss, what a shame Could i give it away) I can feel the cracks Soft and heavy like an attack Stirring in my soul What will it take to let it all go I am spreading thin Can’t reach the edges of my own skin There’s a siren in my soul What will it take to let it all go (let it all go) What does forever really mean When everything changes easily It’s the way that we grow It’s the seeds that we sew Maybe it’s the way everyone feels The brightest laughter, the darkest tears What an ancient tale So alive and well (What an ancient tale/so alive and well) I can feel the cracks Soft and heavy like an attack Stirring in my soul What will it take to let it all go I am spreading thin Can’t reach the edges of my own skin There’s a siren in my soul What will it take to let it all go (let it all go) When everything fades away And memory can’t contain How do we find the strength To live in the day to day Letting go is no’t so bad I’m happy for all I’ve had In this moment i’m alive In this moment we’re alive In this moment we’re not breaking We’re not breaking We’re not breaking We’re are making We’re are making We’re are making Space for everyone to come Space to fill it up with love Space for everyone to come Space to fill it up with love Space for everyone to come Space to fill it up with love Space for everyone to come Space to fill it up with love Fill it up with love Fill it up with love Fill it up with love Love

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A collection of songs that tug at the heartstrings. Included here - 3 bonus tracks, not available anywhere else!

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released May 27, 2022

All music written and produced by Sunflower Summit
Katie Dwyer - Mixing Engineer + Co-Producer
Caridad Espinosa - Mastering Engineer

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Sunflower Summit (she/they) is a Chicago based queer Latinx artist and producer. With a mission to support their community through music and mental health discussions, Sunflower Summit writes and performs music that hits right in the feels. ... more

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