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Become Undone
03:45
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I've been away for a little while
Closed my eyes against the sun
and let the heat burn me a new style
Left it all to become undone
I let the sand blend into my toes
And let the ocean cut my lips
I let this new world pick my clothes
And let myself be carried on ships
My skin is peeling
It hurts to touch
This is the end
This is the start
Isn’t it great
To know in our heart
The end and the start
Both are the same
I’ve been away for a little while
Wondered how long I could out run
The feeling so sad behind this smile
Left it all to become undone
I let the sand blend into my toes
Never had I left the pavement before
Stinging with summer heat - that’s how it goes
Both are the same, everyone knows
My skin is peeling
It hurts to touch
This is the end
This is the start
Isn’t it great
To know in our heart
The end and the start
Both are the same
Endings can hurt
Beginnings can too
Feeling unearthed
That’s what change will do
The end and the start
Both are the same
This is the end
This is the start
Isn’t it great
To know in our heart
The end and the start
Both are the same
Endings can hurt
Beginnings can too
Feeling unearthed
That’s what change will do
The end is the start
Both are the same
Both are the same
Both are the same
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2. |
Do Nothing
03:01
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I just wanna do nothing
do nothing do nothing
I just wanna
I just wanna do nothing
do nothing do nothing
I just wanna
I’m not getting out of bed today
I’m not even gonna eat
I’m not getting out of bed today
It’s cold outside, the skies are gray
And I’m forgetting why
I even try
I’ve been swimming In cold pool
The water doesn’t get warmer
I’ve been swimming In a cold pool
And I don’t want to swim anymore
I just wanna do nothing
do nothing do nothing
I just wanna
I just wanna do nothing
do nothing do nothing
I just wanna
And I’m disappointing
But mostly to myself
To what do I owe all this loathing
Wishing, dreaming, thinking
All this wasted time
Sometimes I forget that I’m breathing
I’ve been swimming In cold pool
The water doesn’t get warmer
I’ve been swimming In a cold pool
And I don’t want to swim anymore
I just wanna do nothing
do nothing do nothing
I just wanna
I just wanna do nothing
do nothing do nothing
I just wanna
Ahh, ahh
Ahh, ahh
I just wanna do nothing
do nothing do nothing
I just wanna
I just wanna do nothing
do nothing do nothing
I just wanna
I just wanna do nothing
do nothing do nothing
I just wanna
I just wanna do nothing
do nothing do nothing
I just wanna
Aahh
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3. |
Not In The Mood
03:09
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I’m not in the mood for singing
Not in the mood for making
Something incredible
Now why does everything have to be
So wonderful, anyway
I want to be seen
I want to be heard
But i’m tired
Of hearing my own voice
And I’m not sure
What the point is anymore
Oohh
Oooh
My heart is breaking in my own hands
And I’ve got no bandaids
I don’t know how to fix it
So I’m just letting it bleed
This person singing right now
Well I know it isn’t me
Or is it the true me
I forget how to be happy
And slip inside this pit
Oohh
Ooohh
Lucky for me, this isn’t an eternity
Lucky for me, I know one day I’ll be happy
Oooh
Oohh
I’m not in the mood for explaining why I get this way
I have a hard time understanding
But somehow I know
Everything’s gonna be okay
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4. |
Anxiety
03:10
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Everything
Is just a little too loud
My eyes are heavy,
but rest they have not found
Anxiety
Oh you riddle me
Why do I let you
Keep me up at night
Let you take over my life
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
Focusing
On such trivial things
I know it doesn’t really matter
But I can’t help myself
‘cause everything matters
I can’t function
Give me back my sleep
I’m a ghost in my own body
An emptiness surrounding
Everything
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh
What will it take
To free myself
Do I need to break
So I can tell
I’m too hard on myself
I already know
I have the key to my own cell
That’s how the cycles goes
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5. |
How Bright
03:43
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All the lullabies in the world
Couldn’t sooth the chaos in my soul
Sweet dreams and counting sheep
Gentle whispers in my sleep
Couldn’t stop my mind from wrecking me
Ooh
I am not one to regret
But all the darkness in my head
Mixes with the light
Put a smile on my face
Giving all my pain away
Doesn’t change how bright
Taste of coffee on my lips
Warms my body but plays tricks
Trying to move on with the day
Battling the tired way
Dreamers run a wasted race
Ooh
I am not one to regret
But all the darkness in my head
Mixes with the light
Put a smile on my face
Giving all my pain away
Doesn’t change how bright
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6. |
Storms
04:58
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Time to let it go
Time to let yourself know
The voices in your mind
Were never so nice
Be gentle
Be kind
This happens every time
Be gentle
Be kind
Save some peace of mind
The storm
Is already here
It’s too late to run
For cover
This is not giving up
This feels heavy
But it’s just enough
Be gentle
Be kind
This happens every time
Be gentle
Be kind
Save some peace of mind
The storm
Is already here
It’s too late to run
For cover
So just let the weather
Drown you out
Tomorrow you can figure it out
Just let the weather drown you out
Tomorrow
Storms come and go
Don’t let them get a hold
Of your heart
Storms come and go
Don’t let them get a hold
Of your heart
The storm
Is already here
It’s too late to run
It’s too late to run
So just let the weather
Drown you out
Tomorrow you can figure it out
Just let the weather drown you out
Tomorrow
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7. |
It's A Rainy Day
04:18
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The world is grieving
The sky is weeping
How does anyone see clearly
Through the rain
How does anyone feel kindness
Through the pain
It’s all blurry
And my ankle won’t carry me
I’m exhausted
But my mind won’t let me sleep
I am told to look for something warm
I’m trying to find my way
Back home
Every moment counts
Every single breath
This world can drown you out
But you got to believe
You can find your way out
It’s all blurry
And my ankle won’t carry me
I’m exhausted
But my mind won’t let me sleep
I am told to look for something warm
I’m trying to find my way
Back home
Release me from these chains
I’m ready for all that remains
Let me dry the tears
From your face
We’ll grieve together
What can’t be replaced
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8. |
Temporary
03:56
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Guess you really faded away
This time
Slowly and softly accumulating
Like dust in the sun
Barely there
Barely harmless
Blending in
Blending out into ordinary time
Ordinary life
Ooh, temporary
Ooh, temporary
Guess I’ve been practicing the act
Of letting go
Longer than I’ve ever known
I’m becoming quite a pro
At detachment
Barely there
Barely anywhere
Blending into nothing
Ooh, temporary
Ooh, temporary
Remembering
Every moment
Is just luck
Remembering
Even joy and happiness
Must pass
Remembering
Every moment
Every feeling
Every heartache
Is just
Ooh, temporary
Ooh, temporary
Ooh, temporary
Ooh, temporary
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9. |
Pure Beauty
03:20
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What are you flustered about
Always running around
Just trying to be found
Girl, you’re not lost
Talking yourself down
Believing the worst
All the words you spoke first
Oh girl, don’t be a liar
Oh when will you learn to see
You are pure beauty
Time to let go
Of the voices in your mind
Telling you you’re not enough
You know they’re only lies
Time to be brave
You can face what lies ahead
You better believe
You are all that you need
You are beautiful
So beautiful
Building up/ everyone you meet
Don’t you know
Everyone can see
All the loving you pour into this world
Is all the loving you need for yourself girl
Pick yourself up, you know you deserve more
Time to step up, believe and you’ll behold
All you need is already within
Girl, you gotta let yourself dream
Oh when will you learn to see
You are pure beauty
Time to let go
Of the voices in your mind
Telling you you’re not enough
You know they’re only lies
Time to be brave
You can face what lies ahead
You better believe
You are all that you need
You are beautiful
So beautiful
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10. |
Tired Soul
04:21
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I’m so tired
I cannot rest
The thought of closing my eyes
Just fills me with dread
Time shows no mercy
It’s unkind
So uncanny
Tell me why
Do I always end up feeling so let down
Over and over again
I am shown
How unreliable life can be
But I just want something steady
Over and over again
I am shown
How heartbreaking life really is
But I just want a good memory
I am a skeptic
Always have been
And perhaps that’s my trouble
I doubt every good thing
Instead of accepting
Perhaps there’s nothing to it
They say visualizing the end
Is a good thing
So I see a moment of hope
Followed by emptiness
Over and over again
I am shown
How joyful a life can be
But I just can’t seem to keep it
Over and over again
I am shown
How simple it all really is
But I just seem to complicate it
I complicate it
What is wrong with me
I am feeling so broken
Will I ever feel whole again
Maybe nothing’s wrong
Maybe I am right where I belong
I know in the end
It all fades away
It all fades away
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11. |
Ironic
03:44
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24 years old
Sitting all alone
On a friday night
And it’s not the first time
Nobody to call
Nobody to miss you
Nobody to tell you
Not to drown yourself in work
It’s easier to be okay
Keeping everyone away
It’s easier to be okay
When you did this to yourself, Oh
Ironic
Aren’t you gonna tell me how
Everybody loves me
Ironic
If everybody loves me
Why is no one with me
I can’t trust myself
To get close with anybody else
Hide the sadness
Hide the pain
No one can explain the way
You feel happy and lost
Wait for tomorrow
Drown the sorrow
With some champaign
Celebrate with grace
It’s easier to be okay
Keeping everyone away
It’s easier to be okay
When you did this to yourself, Oh
Ironic
Aren’t you gonna tell me how
Everybody loves me
Ironic
If everybody loves me
Why is no one with me
I can’t trust myself
To get close with anybody else
I can’t let you in
As much as you try
No rocks will break into mine
I can’t let you in
As much as I wish
You don’t know how much I miss
Being next to you
But my messages can’t get through
Ironic
Aren’t you gonna tell me how
Everybody loves me
Ironic
If everybody loves me
Why is no one with me
I can’t trust myself
To get close with anybody else
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12. |
How Flowers Grow
03:42
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Keeping my life together on post it notes
Trying to find the answers in “i don’t knows”
Answers to questions I haven’t figured out
It feels useless
How do the flowers grow
When they can’t see they don’t know
The world above all the dirt
Piecing together courage
Like returning leaves back on their branches
Muttering words of strength
To bury the words of disbelief
I’m trying to see beyond this
Trying to picture the blue sky
But I need a lot more sunshine
How do the flowers grow
When they can’t see they don’t know
The world above all the dirt
How do the flowers grow
How can they find so much hope
For something that they’ve never seen
Ooh oohh..
I think I know
How the flowers grow
I think I know
How flowers grow
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13. |
Healing
04:10
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I know you don’t really understand
This road I’ve chosen as my path
You think I’m running, running, running away
Just trying trying to throw off the pain
But I’m healing / slowly
If I could skip all of the hard parts
Pretend they never hurt me
I’d be the same as always
How you knew me
How you want me
I need space
To get to know who I am
Beyond this world made at your hand
You can’t control, control, control me anymore
I’ve let go, let go, let go of the your hold
Now I’m healing / slowly
There are moments I’ll never forget
Feelings I can’t comprehend
Are you an enemy or are you a friend
Oh I can’t pretend I’m okay
When I’m caught inside my own maze
I need to find my own key
But you can’t come along with me
I need to find my way home
But this time I’ll do it on my own
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14. |
I Can't See You
03:22
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I couldn’t see you today
I couldn’t see you today
I haven’t seen you in many months
But it hurt more today
And it’s not fair
We’re both still alive
It’s not fair
All I can do is cry
Cuz I couldn’t see
You
I couldn’t see
You
I’m just trying
To sew back together
The shreds I can muster
Trouble is
I never learned to sew
Maybe i’m doing it all wrong
But it was already broken before
Now there’s
Nowhere left to go
I know someday
This will be easier
I know someday
This won’t hurt anymore
Until someday
I need to close the door
Until someday
I can’t see you
I can’t see you
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15. |
To Be Brave
02:43
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It’s been a hard couple of days
If I let myself really see
It’s always been this way
Rose colored glasses
Remove the frame
I’m left with the pieces
So little remains
Everything changes
So rapidly
I’m doing everything
To believe
I want to try
To be brave
I want to let go and see
If I could be free
So I’ll try
To be brave
Nobody else can do it for me
Just take it easy
And don’t be mean
There are so many avenues
So many places to be
I grew up thinking
I could only be
As small as you made me
Well I’m no longer listening
Everything changes so rapidly
I’m doing everything to believe
I want to try
To be brave
I want to let go and see
If I could be free
So I’ll try
To be brave
Nobody else can do it for me
Now I’m the one
Who gets to decide
I’m not afraid of living
My own life
I won’t let you define
Who I am
Anymore - anymore
I want to try
To be brave
I want to let go and see
If I could be free
So I’ll try
To be brave
Nobody else can do it for me
Nobody else can love me like me
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16. |
To Love Myself
03:39
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I woke up on the wrong side
Of the bed
A single thought spiraling
Through my head
I thought I knew how to be
My own friend
But just look at where that’s lead
There I go
Wasting away another day
There I go
Feeling ashamed
Of needing a break
How many times
Do I need to learn
How many times
Do I need to learn
To love myself
Guilt so many layers deep
I can’t decide
How much of the guilt is
Actually mine
If I’m honest I know I got
To leave it behind
I’m always afraid I’m running
Out of time
There I go
Wasting away another
Whole day
There I go
Feeling ashamed
Of needing a break
Oh
How many times
Do I need to learn
How many times
Do I need to learn
To love myself
oh
Am I being selfish
Or is this okay
I’m a hamster on a wheel
Just rolling away
Even if I could forgive you
That doesn’t ever change
Everything we’ve been through
Still remains
How many times
Do I need to learn
How many times
Do I need to learn
How many times
Do I need to learn
To love myself
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17. |
Bonus - In This Moment
02:52
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In this moment
I’m feeling alone
And the hood around my head
Is just safe enough
In this moment
I know all i know
Is only a little bit
Of stardust in this world
And once this becomes a memory
I wonder what I’ve learned
Maybe nothing, maybe everything
Maybe all there is to know
Is that we are made of moments
Little speccles of light and dust
I can see you glimmer lightly
And it’s all i need to trust
That In this moment
I’m present here with you
This is how I remind myself
To change my point of view
In this moment
There’s nothing we can’t do
Cuz this moment is all we have
So our dreams they must come true
And once this becomes a memory
I wonder what we’ve learned
Maybe nothing, maybe everything
Maybe all there is to know
Is that we are made of moments
Little speccles of light and dust
I can see you glimmer lightly
And it’s all i need to trust
That in this moment
We are stardust, we are light
Just a fleeting human soul
Living in this giant world
In This moment
We’ve got you and me
We’re not so different
Now I can see
We were meant to be be
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18. |
Bonus - Take My Love
03:16
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What do you do
When everything around you
Swallows you whole
What do you then
What do you say
When all the words have
Emptied from your brain
What do you say then
Because the knot is growing
Tighter and the fog is growing
Stronger and the sirens are
All ringing and it’s harder to
Keep singing
And then what is left
When the song has ended
And It’s just silent
What do you do
When all the tears have dried up
And you’re left with an empty well
What do you do then
And what do you say
When all you feel is the pain
And there’s nothing else
What do you say then
Because the knot is growing
Tighter and the fog is growing
Stronger and the sirens are
All ringing and it’s harder to
Keep singing
And then what is left
When the song has ended
And It’s just silent
Don’t let it be silent
Don’t let it be silent
Don’t let it be silent
Don’t let it be silent
Because the knot is growing
Tighter and the fog is growing
Stronger and the sirens are
All ringing and it’s harder to
Keep singing
But i promise to keep going
And I promise to keep showing up
Everyday to give my love
Please take it all
Everyday I’ll give my love
Take it all
Everyday I’ll give my love
Take my love
Please take my love
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19. |
Bonus - Open Cracks
04:03
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Walking along sunday morning
Coffee burning on my tongue
Another day
Will i waste it away
Hanging around on a fragment
Do I even exist anymore
What a loss, what a shame
Could I give it away
(what a loss, what a shame
Could i give it away)
I can feel the cracks
Soft and heavy like an attack
Stirring in my soul
What will it take to let it all go
I am spreading thin
Can’t reach the edges of my own skin
There’s a siren in my soul
What will it take to let it all go
(let it all go)
What does forever really mean
When everything changes easily
It’s the way that we grow
It’s the seeds that we sew
Maybe it’s the way everyone feels
The brightest laughter, the darkest tears
What an ancient tale
So alive and well
(What an ancient tale/so alive and well)
I can feel the cracks
Soft and heavy like an attack
Stirring in my soul
What will it take to let it all go
I am spreading thin
Can’t reach the edges of my own skin
There’s a siren in my soul
What will it take to let it all go
(let it all go)
When everything fades away
And memory can’t contain
How do we find the strength
To live in the day to day
Letting go is no’t so bad
I’m happy for all I’ve had
In this moment i’m alive
In this moment we’re alive
In this moment we’re not breaking
We’re not breaking
We’re not breaking
We’re are making
We’re are making
We’re are making
Space for everyone to come
Space to fill it up with love
Space for everyone to come
Space to fill it up with love
Space for everyone to come
Space to fill it up with love
Space for everyone to come
Space to fill it up with love
Fill it up with love
Fill it up with love
Fill it up with love
Love
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Sunflower Summit Chicago, Illinois
sunflowersummit.music@gmail.com
Sunflower Summit (she/they) is a Chicago based queer Latinx
artist and producer. With a mission to support their community through music and mental health discussions, Sunflower Summit writes and performs music that hits right in the feels.
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